Vertigo

i had people after me in the dream.
i was in anna's townhome, altho it didnt feel like it immediately upon waking or during the dream. i just realized it after the fact. which is weird, usually i know where i am but it looks nothing like it, in this dream i didnt feel like i was at home, but... in waking life it turns out i was.

moving on, i hear people outside, and i see a girl and i think a guy. they have a pickup backed in into a parking spot in front of my window. the girl has a shotgun. she sees me, altho i didnt think she could. she continues to point the shotgun at the window/me and wants to shoot me. i dont think she lets a round off, but either way i know they are after specifically me. i go to the hallway and peek downstairs. i dont know if i have a knife, but maybe i do. it's dark downstairs and in the middle of the "eye shot/ picture/ framing" there is a light that is circling ... like a turning spiral. it doesnt get very large, but the light continues to swirl. it is very faint. almost like my eyes are playing tricks on me. then all of a sudden my eyes focus in on this floating contraption. it has no markable shape, but it is floating and then readies itself to shoot something. i see it aim at me, and i run. it fires, and a spear -like for spearing whales or something- comes after me. i miss it's initial aim but once it is upstairs it turns and faces me again. i run into anna's room (altho it's my room in the dream and is completely empty) and shut the door. the thing shoves into the door and is stuck. Phew saved! Or not? Something else is after me, and i dont know if it's the same spear or if the people are shooting things at me from the floor below? I make my mind up to jump out the window (right into their laps) because basically there is no where else to run besides right into flying spears ! the window is long, rectangular and it opens tilting up and down. i tilt it out, and get partially out the window. i start praying for God to help me get on the roof, and I hope they dont see me. Then it's like I keep making different decisions and they keep seeing me, yet not seeing me. And I wake up.

I really didn't think I would remember this much...

Snippets of memory, not flowing but somehow connected.

I was in a place where I think I was going to pay a medical bill. I could not find the papers I needed to fill out. There was a table with papers but no papers that I needed. Another lady was there who was going through the same frustration as I was. There was a lot of junk on the table with the papers and I decided that the junk (that was not supposed to be there, and was more likely customer-placed and not employee-placed) that junk was covering the papers. So I started throwing things around trying to uncover what was undearneat, and I found the papers. I got one for me and one for the other lady.

I was still at this place and sitting across from who is supposed to be John Cusack. He is pale-skinned, balding, with wild hair where there is hair. More akin to an older version of Col's old roommate Peter Gabriel than John Cusack himself. Aaaanyway-

Cusack and I were talking, well, he was more mumbling to himself. Clearly distraught over something, probably trivial. I grabbed his arms consolingly and said something to him that made him ease up. I have no memory of what I said, but it was something like an inside joke between us, or clearly something that let me know that we knew each other. He grabbed my arms mirroringly and was smiling and being nice. Evidently we were in a relationship, or this is when I realize we were. I think we decided to leave the place.

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I was walking to my car from some building, MAYBE the Clinic/Bill place, and maybe the house that is mentioned later; I really dont know. I walked straight out and then looked to my left and my car was pretty far to my left. I was thinking "I could have made a bee-line to my car" but then realized somehow it would have been the same amount of distance to travel.

I dont know if I drove my car away or if it was already parked away from the rest of the cars, but sobeit. I wanted privacy because I was changing clothes in my car. I dont know why I was changing clothes, but I do recall when I didnt have a shirt on and hadnt put the other one on yet, a girl I knew was driving toward me and parked right by me. She also was going to change clothes though, and was just parking away from the mass of other cars for privacy. So I guess since I was changing (and she clearly saw) then she didnt feel so bad either. Later someone had commented (and almost commended?) me and the other girl for changing in the parking lot. It was economical in some way or saved on time or something?

(not sure if these events are at the same time, or two separate events)

While in my car, I had let my brother's cat Diego loose accidentally. I had to chase him down screaming his name. He didnt get too far before he stopped for me and I scopped him up and put him back in the car. I felt bad for leaving him in the car while I went to do other things, but I really didnt know what else to do with him. The windows were cracked slightly and I remember thinking I didnt think he could escape again through them. It was also cloudy and maybe rainy, so it wasnt sweltering hot, and I am sure Diego would be fine. But I still felt bad.

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I was in a house with a few other people. I had brought in a long, relatively large box that had some food in it. Everyone was supposed to bring food, and I think they were all leftovers? The other people there were saying something and evidently they thought I had brought desserts or pastries. I am not sure what they thought- part of me thinks they were unhappy that I brought desserts, but then I also remember them complaining that they didn't have enough? Maybe they were upset because I wasnt supposed to bring pastries and they thought I did... moving along. I assured them I hadnt, and it was main course foods. Then it was brought up that Cusack was supposed to bring the desserts. He wasnt there yet, and I cant recall whether he had a lot of cakes, or he used to have a lot of cakes but was depressed so he ate them and now we werent going to have as many as we wanted?? Something....along those lines.

I am sure I was still in the same house with the same people? I was pointing out the window at some passers-by and saying "That one looks like Jared." And I think it was my co-worker Amy who was one of the people and I was telling her. She was trying to clarify 'The one that was jumping?" and I said "No" and she made a hand gesture on her shirt to mimic color stripes and said "The one with the pattern?" And I got confused and said 'Yes, but he wasnt jumping." and I couldnt remember if he HAD been jumping or if she was making the stripes on the OTHER passer-by's shirt. Jared had a navy blue and white horizontal striped shirt, with large strips, so large there maye have only been the two patches of color. The other one that I thought was jumping had horizontal strips with a lime green and white, but the stripes were much smaller. Amy's hand gesture was large and made me think she was coloring a larger stripe.

I went outside for some reason, I think? Maybe this is when I go to the car, but I dont really remember? Somehow I run into the guy and it is Jared. We are talking and I dont remember anything that is said, but we were kissing at one point. I remember being in the bathroom with him also, and he was sitting on the toilet backwards/facing it, like you would sit on a chair backwards to be casual. He was facing the wall, but looking at me. I for some reason didnt have pants on, and I didnt like that he was looking at me without pants. It made me uncomfortable. Some water and stuff was coming down from the ceiling in the bathroom and I was trying to avoid it, but it was moving and I was moving, and I walked right into it. Grrr, so much for trying to avoid it.

(back in the main area)

Matt T was also there (as were the rest of the guys), but it did not look a thing like him. He was telling me they were going outside to take photos and I was welcome to go also and take some, so they can get everyone in the photo. Jared stayed inside and he was lying on a couch with a girl, and at one point I think he was a girl? I was talking to him, and dont remember what was said. I went back to the origination point where the food was brought out and I was talking to Amy, this is also where Matt told me I should take the photos. I was elated and thinking to myself, "Maybe this isnt going anywhere, maybe this is just for me to get closure. But either way, I am very happy"

I then go outside for the photos. Someone says something to me about not having a camera, but I was going to use the one Matt had, so I thought "youre silly" but then ran back inside and grabbed my camera anyway so I would have some of my own and I said something about that very thing and that I wouldnt have to wait forever to see any.

There were a lot of people outside, many with cameras. It was a grassy yardy area like my backyard on Milby. But the house would have been where Jillian's was, leading into the yard from the backside and not from where the house normally is on Milby. There were a lot of neat things around and I was taking a lot of pictures of everything around me, as were the other people. I was having a good time taking the photos.

The Hef

I was in a large house in an upstairs area with other people. I think I was at a female friend's house, but at this time I don't think that matters. I was hanging out with Ben R and he went somewhere and was gone for a very long time. There was some sort of gathering going on outside in the yard. I had a nice over-view of the area where the things was going on. I think at first it was a big tennis match? but later it was more like a photo shoot or a film being made. I am thinking more of a photo shoot. It was full of scantily clad women, and I began to be sure that's where Ben went. I got out binoculars and was trying to look at the people there to see if I could find him, and I didnt see him. At least I don't think I did.

So me and my female friend went down to the area anyway. It was inside now, and no longer outside. Hugh Hefner was there, and he was my friend's father. We talked to him for a bit and when he found out I was from Texas/ going back to TX he asked me to find out if Jessica Simpson was going to break up with her husband or not? Something like that, he wanted me to tell him if I found out any news about her, because clearly- since I am from TX I would have insider knowledge. Haha I just kinda laughed and nodded and said "sure thing." But later I did come across her breaking up with her husband or something similar. She was still with Nick L. in my dream... but I guess not for long ! I remember wanting to tell Hugh, but I dont recall if I ever did.

While I was down with the people, I did find out that Ben had been there, but eventually left.

Tornado Alley

I was in a building with many rooms, stairs, levels etc. There were a lot of other people there, as well, but not always around me.

There were two or three tornadoes far away headed in our direction. I was scouring the building for the best place to lay low when it hit. I found a place that was ok, but it had a ton of windows along one wall and it was very open and I preferred some place smaller. There was a closet-like place in the room, and I chose to go there. At this time people were coming in and lying face down on the pavement for the best protection from the tornado. I also layed face down.

I started thinking this was really not the best place for me to be, and I left for another option. When the tornado hit, I could see a huge explosion come from the room I was just in. At one time, I was complaining to someone that the people in charge would send them to a room lined with windows and and an explosive tank in it. What morons I said. I think the explosive was a hot water heater or something, in any case it exploded when hit by the tornado or debris. Either I looked in the room or someone else did, and there were a ton of people dead and burned up in there. I didnt SEE inside the room in my dream, so it either really wasnt me, or I watched myself look in the room.

The person who looked in the room made the suggestion we dont go in there to find the survivors and we let them crawl their way out (seriously? but i agreed anyway, a little reluctantly, and we left for another room).

I think we found a place with many other survivors and maybe stayed there a while.

Huh?

I barely remember the dream save for bits and pieces.

So, I shall commence with the details from which I can pull.

Tim Roth was driving me around. I think we were sort of on a date? He had asked me if he could be allowed to go on dates with me exclusively? Or something similar- It was a randomly worded way of asking to be exclusive, and I just kinda didn't know how to respond. I don't think I ever gave him an answer, but I remember thinking this was barely a date and a first time at that, so why? I think we were headed to the movies....

There was a small hole-in-the-wall type bar/grill place that I kept going back to in my dream. I am pretty sure they served hot wings... (hehe) And I believe there was "Buffalo Wild Wings" referenced at some time, so maybe that was what it was supposed to be.

There was a main street outside of the bar, and since it was night there was not much traffic. I think when Tim was driving, he was heading into oncoming traffic or not driving very well. I think we went into the bar's drive-way just in time to avoid people.

At one point, I was dragging my car behind me into the grill's parking lot. I think it was the same car Tim was using to drive us around. It was a smaller version of a vehicle, though. It was white, but it was more like a station-wagon type body. Not a civic. I was trying to find a place to drag it and leave it as if I had parked it. The first place I tried it would fit, but I couldnt physically un-park it and drive away.

The parking lot was fenced in with tall metal chain-link fencing and it was grass and gravel, not paved. I saw there was plenty of open space to park, so I moved on and I dont think I ever even parked it. I do remember the other vehicles in the lot were huge pick-up trucks, and there were only about 4-6 total cars in the small lot.

All of my dream took place at night/ dark and everything was wet, but I don't recall any actual rain.

I have a feeling that my dad was in the dream at some time, or my parents... but I can't place anything. Just a feeling. The feeling also that they were the ones referencing the wild wing place. And I can kind of picture my sister waiting outside the building with my family, but I could be making it up. I also have a feeling there was another guy in the dream, but thats even more vague than my family.

Sad Face

So I was with Justen and we were driving around. I was planning on staying at his place and was figuring on whether I could bring Baxter or not. Justen didnt want me to, but I didnt want to leave Baxter alone. I hadnt been to J's place but I was picturing a very run down large open warehouse type place.

We were in my area (although nothing looked familiar) and I keot having to tell him which way to turn. He was late in everything and also kept driving over curbs and missing the driveways. Later in the dream, however, he was speeding and taking every turn too fast with minimal slowing and I kept thinking we were going to hit curbs and maybe people or buidings, but mostly just curbs. Haha

J and I were at the store buying things to consume over the next day or two. And He got Mountain Dews while I got Sunkist ! Dream world. The store was like a convenient store, really, and the cash register was in the center of the store. I remember grabbing other things and putting them in the basket, but I dont know what they were. There was a small room attached to the building that was full of fresh veggies and fruits. I was getting things for sandwiches. I was looking at onions and trying to find tomatoes. I couldnt find them for the life of me. I think Anna comes in some time around when I am in the place. She is talking about meeting us where we are going, but either earlier or later.

While looking for veggies I finally spot the tomatoes and ask J if he prefers cherry tomatoes or sliced ones, and he says sliced. I look at the plant with the large tomatoes and it was dying and all the tomatoes were rotting, so I said "tough luck" and went for the cherry tomatoes. I had clippers or scissors and they, at first I thought, were growing on Fuzz (Anna's cat) and I was clipping at Fuzz. I started to get one of his claws because it was so long, or maybe it had a cherry tomato attached to it, I dont rightly know. I couldnt get it cut and moved on to the real bush of tomatoes that I saw and I guess cut some. I dont know.

While in the main part of the store, I see a guy at the check-out with very stunning eyes and a familiar face. I look away and think "I know that guy" and I look back and I dont remember who recognizes who first, but it was James Molinari from Duel. We hug and exchange a few words, and then life moves on. I remember later saying goodbye to James and Andrew Roth, but now James is probably Justin Tully as I was about to say "theyre not even from the same movie set" and then realized that they WERE from the same set. We were exchanging goodbyes and making on-set inside jokes.

Now I dont remember if I bumped into him or if Justen turned into him, but now I am riding around and maybe even in the store? with Jared J. I remember I was to stay at his place and we were deciding on whether or not I should bring Baxter. It's very much like I was reliving the beginning with Justen, but ... it was different. Naturally. At one point we were making out and he said something about him wanting to avoid the dire consequences of not being able to spend the next day or two together. In the dream, I took it that it was important to be together for that time, I suppose because it was all we had and we needed more? Maybe to see if things could progress. Something like that. And part of me also was thinking he was going to try to have sex with me. And wherever we were kissing- he had started to make it go there, but knowing that it wouldnt or couldnt. He then stopped and said "You are so perfect" and I hid my face because I didnt know what to say to that. And he said "You are so perfect, I only need to lay here with you" Or something. I was so sad and confused and couldnt say a thing because I didnt know what to make of what was going on.

Almost all forgotten

It's now evening, and I am sure that I have forgotten most of my dream...

I was with Marilyn and we were walking around a mall doing some shopping. We had booked a private room in which we were supposed to do some studying, research, writing, or make a powerpoint or presentation or something educationally productive. We never did and we decided not to do it at all in the end.

At one point we were looking at buying some Chuck Taylors and my sister was not happy with the prices. She tried to find a cheaper price and I think she found one at a price she liked and I remember thinking she could get one cheaper still.

I remember being in the room and either it led to outside or I could see outside and it was wilderness like a swampy lake with some white/purple flowers growing in it. It looked like it could use some rain to fill the area up some, but it was not extremely desolate.

I remember driving in my car. I wanted to turn a left or do a U-Turn. I was behind a big truck like a garbage truck and they did a turn, I subsequently turned after them. But he was turning in a way that made my turning run into his, and we crashed. He was very upset with me, even though he wasnt very smart with his driving choice on his turn. But neither here nor there. This man was now after me.

I remember being across the street of my parents house and the garbage truck man had sent some people over (i dont think he was one himself). I had called my parents and my mom answered. I warned her that these men coming to their door were there to kill my dad. I had counted 6 of them, but there were more showing up every second. They were all wearing long tan trench coats and walking up individually. They did not come together and they did not all go inside the house. Only around 6 - 9 went inside and another 5 - 7 stayed outside.

There were still some waiting outside the house when all was "finished." and By finished, I mean some people came out of my parents house signifying the ordeal was over. I swear it was my mom and dad and another person or two. They were dumping a ton of bodies into a huge open pit in the front yard. I remember crying and saying to my sister "Do you wan to go over there and say goodbye to mother and daddy?" Because they were probably going to die from their injuries.

So we went over there and who I thought was my dad was not my dad at all. And my sister said "There is Daddy, I see his face." And she was pointing in the huge pit (that didnt look like it had bodies in it) and there was a vertical body-sized lump of dirt on one wall of the pit. Like a lump of dirt would be over a grave.. if the grave were vertical and on a wall instead of horizontal and on the ground.

My mother had lost her legs from the knee down. Mostly skin and muscle, I think she still had her leg bones (but no feet).

Only one thing

So, the ONLY thing I remember from my dream(s) last night is Ben Rhudy getting very angry with me about seeing David Ruiz's myspace. He had another girl with him, though, and went over to her and I think kissed? I didnt see it, though. I just remember thinking why is he so pissed at me when he has that girl? I do remember feeling very sorry and wished that I could make things better.