I really didn't think I would remember this much...

Snippets of memory, not flowing but somehow connected.

I was in a place where I think I was going to pay a medical bill. I could not find the papers I needed to fill out. There was a table with papers but no papers that I needed. Another lady was there who was going through the same frustration as I was. There was a lot of junk on the table with the papers and I decided that the junk (that was not supposed to be there, and was more likely customer-placed and not employee-placed) that junk was covering the papers. So I started throwing things around trying to uncover what was undearneat, and I found the papers. I got one for me and one for the other lady.

I was still at this place and sitting across from who is supposed to be John Cusack. He is pale-skinned, balding, with wild hair where there is hair. More akin to an older version of Col's old roommate Peter Gabriel than John Cusack himself. Aaaanyway-

Cusack and I were talking, well, he was more mumbling to himself. Clearly distraught over something, probably trivial. I grabbed his arms consolingly and said something to him that made him ease up. I have no memory of what I said, but it was something like an inside joke between us, or clearly something that let me know that we knew each other. He grabbed my arms mirroringly and was smiling and being nice. Evidently we were in a relationship, or this is when I realize we were. I think we decided to leave the place.

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I was walking to my car from some building, MAYBE the Clinic/Bill place, and maybe the house that is mentioned later; I really dont know. I walked straight out and then looked to my left and my car was pretty far to my left. I was thinking "I could have made a bee-line to my car" but then realized somehow it would have been the same amount of distance to travel.

I dont know if I drove my car away or if it was already parked away from the rest of the cars, but sobeit. I wanted privacy because I was changing clothes in my car. I dont know why I was changing clothes, but I do recall when I didnt have a shirt on and hadnt put the other one on yet, a girl I knew was driving toward me and parked right by me. She also was going to change clothes though, and was just parking away from the mass of other cars for privacy. So I guess since I was changing (and she clearly saw) then she didnt feel so bad either. Later someone had commented (and almost commended?) me and the other girl for changing in the parking lot. It was economical in some way or saved on time or something?

(not sure if these events are at the same time, or two separate events)

While in my car, I had let my brother's cat Diego loose accidentally. I had to chase him down screaming his name. He didnt get too far before he stopped for me and I scopped him up and put him back in the car. I felt bad for leaving him in the car while I went to do other things, but I really didnt know what else to do with him. The windows were cracked slightly and I remember thinking I didnt think he could escape again through them. It was also cloudy and maybe rainy, so it wasnt sweltering hot, and I am sure Diego would be fine. But I still felt bad.

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I was in a house with a few other people. I had brought in a long, relatively large box that had some food in it. Everyone was supposed to bring food, and I think they were all leftovers? The other people there were saying something and evidently they thought I had brought desserts or pastries. I am not sure what they thought- part of me thinks they were unhappy that I brought desserts, but then I also remember them complaining that they didn't have enough? Maybe they were upset because I wasnt supposed to bring pastries and they thought I did... moving along. I assured them I hadnt, and it was main course foods. Then it was brought up that Cusack was supposed to bring the desserts. He wasnt there yet, and I cant recall whether he had a lot of cakes, or he used to have a lot of cakes but was depressed so he ate them and now we werent going to have as many as we wanted?? Something....along those lines.

I am sure I was still in the same house with the same people? I was pointing out the window at some passers-by and saying "That one looks like Jared." And I think it was my co-worker Amy who was one of the people and I was telling her. She was trying to clarify 'The one that was jumping?" and I said "No" and she made a hand gesture on her shirt to mimic color stripes and said "The one with the pattern?" And I got confused and said 'Yes, but he wasnt jumping." and I couldnt remember if he HAD been jumping or if she was making the stripes on the OTHER passer-by's shirt. Jared had a navy blue and white horizontal striped shirt, with large strips, so large there maye have only been the two patches of color. The other one that I thought was jumping had horizontal strips with a lime green and white, but the stripes were much smaller. Amy's hand gesture was large and made me think she was coloring a larger stripe.

I went outside for some reason, I think? Maybe this is when I go to the car, but I dont really remember? Somehow I run into the guy and it is Jared. We are talking and I dont remember anything that is said, but we were kissing at one point. I remember being in the bathroom with him also, and he was sitting on the toilet backwards/facing it, like you would sit on a chair backwards to be casual. He was facing the wall, but looking at me. I for some reason didnt have pants on, and I didnt like that he was looking at me without pants. It made me uncomfortable. Some water and stuff was coming down from the ceiling in the bathroom and I was trying to avoid it, but it was moving and I was moving, and I walked right into it. Grrr, so much for trying to avoid it.

(back in the main area)

Matt T was also there (as were the rest of the guys), but it did not look a thing like him. He was telling me they were going outside to take photos and I was welcome to go also and take some, so they can get everyone in the photo. Jared stayed inside and he was lying on a couch with a girl, and at one point I think he was a girl? I was talking to him, and dont remember what was said. I went back to the origination point where the food was brought out and I was talking to Amy, this is also where Matt told me I should take the photos. I was elated and thinking to myself, "Maybe this isnt going anywhere, maybe this is just for me to get closure. But either way, I am very happy"

I then go outside for the photos. Someone says something to me about not having a camera, but I was going to use the one Matt had, so I thought "youre silly" but then ran back inside and grabbed my camera anyway so I would have some of my own and I said something about that very thing and that I wouldnt have to wait forever to see any.

There were a lot of people outside, many with cameras. It was a grassy yardy area like my backyard on Milby. But the house would have been where Jillian's was, leading into the yard from the backside and not from where the house normally is on Milby. There were a lot of neat things around and I was taking a lot of pictures of everything around me, as were the other people. I was having a good time taking the photos.